Thursday, July 2, 2009

just not good enough

Here I am. Keeping it real.

I am having one of those days where I just don't feel like I'm good enough.

For those who know me well, you've learned by now that I have a tendency for being quite the perfectionist and on top of that I have a little (OK, a lot!) of insecurity in myself.

These two together are a deadly combination.

Some days I just feel like I'm treading water. Not making any progress.

I want to be able to "do it all" without the stress that comes with it.

I want to be the best mother, wife, sister, daughter, friend that I can be. But what do I do when I just don't feel good enough?

There's no one particular event that happened for me to be feeling this way.

I'm just exhausted from the responsibilities of life.

But, it's time to "brush it off" as I always tell my kids when they fall. Get up and keep doing what I do best...

Loving my life and living it to the best of my potential. Because I do know that God thinks that I AM GOOD ENOUGH...and maybe even better.


Sally said...

You are amazing Heidi! You have a beautiful home and a beautiful family and you are a gorgeous and talented, sweet person. I too sometimes get down in the dumps by all the chaos that comes with our blessed lives! I know this is just one more thing to do, but sit down and make a list of what you did yesterday... I think you'd be pleased with yourself. *hugs*

Michelle Sybert said...

"not good enough" is a lie fromt eh pit of hell- a LIE Satan wants you to believe.

And God doesn't just think you are "good enough". He thinks you are the BEST! You are His child!

Katie said...

Oh Hon! Don't ever feel you're not good enough! You are a wonderful at everything you do. I know how you feel, I've been kind of down in the dumps a bit too. Too overwhelmed with, well everything! It's normal to have moments like these. {BIG HUGS}

Emily said...

You are totally good enough!!! I can relate to how you feel the end of the day I often feel stressed that I flaked at somethings and didn't do something as well/fast/perfectly as I should have! Whenever I feel that way, I just try and tell myself that this is just part of the stage of life I'm in and put a smile on my face and go on my way!

Tammy Williams said...

As moms I think we all feel this way from time to time. We juggle a lot of tasks and responsibilities and we rarely get recognized for them. I just want you to know that you are not alone my friend. AND you are doing an awesome job raising your little ones. Quite often I wonder why Maya just can't be as well behaved as Mikayla, but then I remind myself that Maya just likes to color outside the lines and make her own rules. There is nothing wrong with that either. In any case, I think you are a marvelous mom and friend:)

Rhonda said...

Hey Heidi,
I could have written that post!! I too have been in a funk this week. Not looking forward to the weigh in tomorrow...that has been part of it for me. (It's bad!)

You are wonderful!!! You are an awesome mom, photographer, crafter, stampin up leader, and name a few.

YOU ARE WORTH IT! Try to see yourself in God's eyes. You are a beautiful person!

Tomorrow is a new day! Here's to a better tomorrow! ~hugs~

Miller Racing Family said...

I totally know what you are meaning. I am sort of going through the same thing. I am having some issues that are causing me to have low self esteem. Isn't that crazy I am in my late twenties, I should be over this, but I guess that is the joy of being a woman.
I am reading a book right now that talks about a family that always say 4:13 when someone is down or thinks that they can't do something. I have tried that this week and it seems to always lift my mood.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13

Michie said...

I'm an insecure perfectionist too, and I know how you are feeling. You'll get through it. Give your kids a great big hug, and play with them for awhile.

It is really hard to teach yourself that good enough is good enough sometimes, and that you don't have to be everything to everyone. I struggle with this myself. I wish I had some words of wisdom on how to stop beating yourself up this way, but I don't. I just thought it might help to know you aren't the only one. :)

Amber said...

I feel you Heidi. I'm right there with you. I wish I had something good to say, but I don't. :(

Just know you are not alone. And we'll both get out of it soon.

Kelli @ RTSM said...

I think all mom's feel like that sometimes...I know I do all the time! There are so many things that I want to do...and it seems like nothing ever gets done! I am a bit of a perfectionist too, but I am learning to just let things go! It is hard sometimes, but what other choice do you have but to make yourself crazy over stuff that probably doesn't matter a whole lot anyway!

Rhonda said...

Hey...I wanted to add to that maybe you should try Operation Beautiful. It really does something for the people who participate too. I'll try to post it soon.

Sarah Ondracek said...

Heidi, I HATE those days! Trying to be the best at everything we do and trying not to dissapoint anyone is a full time job! Give yourself a break from time to time. We all have those feelings and some days, they are overwhelming. You are a beautiful mom who's got it all together so build up your confidence and know that you can conquet the world!!!

Kelli said...

Oh, we all have these days sweetie!!! Thanks for being so upfront, honest and transparent. We can all realate. That other blogger was right though. These lies are lies that Satan plants into us to make us think that we can't do it when with God's strength, we CAN. Thanks again for being so honest.

Kelli said...

You are totally good enough. Try not to be hard on yourself (so much easier to give advice rather than take it). I feel the same way a lot of days and I've come to realize that my intentions are worth just as much. If the dishes are dirty because I stopped and play with the kids, that's more important. You are doing a great job with those two. Just pray for patient and encouragement and He'll give it to you. (((Hugs))) from Ohio.

Hillary said...

I think it's normal for people to feel inadequate-I find myself feeling this way sometimes too, and I hate it. :( Keep trekking-that feeling will subside eventually, because you are a wonderful person!

I know the perfectionism thing all too well.

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